i just finished packing my things, i head back home tomorrow at 7 in the morning. im gonna miss my family, my aunts and my grandma and my uncle jim andd cousin matt. butt i love NY, i love the 315. it's been a good trip, i think ive gotten my head on a little straighter im alone and smiling. i don't need the people that don't need me.

as for dan, eh who knows. i havn't had a good conversation like we used to in over 2 weeks. probablyy longer. but i don't care he doesn't need me, so i don't need him. im gonna miss the lovin and company butt i want someone who wants me. i want to need someone, but i want that someone to need me. someone who never seems uninterested. who can tell me whats on their mind and tell me the truth. i don't want false promises and hopes that cant be fulfilled. Im certainly not asking for a forever, just a reason to be happy. and yes i am happy as of right now but only in certain aspects. theres always room for improvement.[[note to the inspiration: i think somethings up and yes i care but you told me you wouldn't, so ill hope for the best and not worry about the worst, cause i don't believe in second chancces when it comes to this kind of stuff, we could never be. you said she had ways of making you feel like shit, i wonder if it was really her, and not you? good luck kid]]

as for all other boys, liking you hurts to much, i need a brake. be nice to me.


one last note, im happyy =]=] im finally getting to the point where i can just sit back and relax. i wanna be completely carefree. forget the drama ill tune you out. i wanna put all of the high school bullshit on the back burner enjoy my junior summer, anddd get pumpedd for senior year =]=]


"so if your down, then lets get down and if your not, then get the fuck out"-emanual